Apr 19, 2014

Chapter 7 Life is Hard

Halu there, how you've been doing ? I hope someone do actually read this.

We have now entering the phase of pushing everything to the limit. Everyone is supposedly to be focus on one thing that is really really important for every each one of us, for our future. And I don't have to tell what is it because you can figure it out yourself.

The thing with pushing things (to the limit) , it will always come with stress and pressure. And I'm talking about feelings right here. While we are busy preparing ourselves for the upcoming test or examination, often we forgot that people around us also have feelings too. 

And what I mean is, we need to be considerate to each other. You can't just to think of yourself alone. Try to make it a win-win situation. You are happy. I am happy. Often words uttered are not from the heart itself. Kadang-kadang kawan kita tak berniat pon nak sakitkan hati kita, tapi kenapa tah kita terasa. 

I am mad at myself for holding anger for a period of time, I hate that I hate someone. But the thing is, I can't shake it off. I wish I can do something about this, and then I thought; "uh oh! I indeed can. All I have to do is to avoid crossing path with her/him" and yes, it is the best thing to do. To avoid people who cause your blood to boil. And then I tell myself; "hey, why do I need to waste time thinking about it?" 

Oh God the negative aura is getting stronger. 

Well erm let's think of it like this. You can have what you desire, but the main point is; try not to disturb someone's peace and quiet and erm I can't think of anything else.

That is the first story. I'm not done yet.

Now here is another problem.

do you think the other party who are to be blame? Do you believe so? Then, do me a favor, reflect upon yourselves. Are you sure your attitude are perfectly fine ? Sometimes, kita sendiri yang kena berubah. Asyik salahkan orang lain, asyik nak mengamuk, padahal diri sendiri yang bermasalah.

Therefore, be considerate, and try no to pick a fight with someone. 

Hurm I think there is some loopholes in this post but nevermind who cares anyway? 

That's all for now. Will be back ranting on the next post. It's exam season . 

Chapter 6

Alhamdulillah for everything. 

Trial 1 has ended, trial 2 is starting in a jiffy, which mean it's a week closer to the real examination. To be honest, I am scared. It's like I have not study enough (which is true) and I'm afraid that the clock is not giving me any chances (which is also true)... so yeah, it's a race.

It is indeed a race.

I believe Allah has something in plan, I have to make sure that it's worth my effort. Which mean I cannot take things lightly now. Even if I have to do it alone, then it's fine. Plus, He want us to be strong, right? If this is exactly the path for me to be stronger, than I just have to take my leap of faith.

---April 12, 2014

Apr 3, 2014

Chapter 5

Less than a month before CIE AS Level examination on 6th May, 2014. May Allah ease everything. CIE A Level (A2 subjects) will be held around October 2014. A Level result will be out around 2015 ( I thought so).

eventhough tak nak fly to Germany but hurm I don't want to sign up for Diploma course. So yup, it's drilling time.

Mar 27, 2014

Chapter 4

It took me 10 months to realize this is exactly the path that has been chosen by Allah to get the best out of me, 

If only it's a little bit earlier, but that is the point. 

You did bad because the next time you fall for the same situation, you know exactly how to get your back straight again without slipping. 

Alhamdulillah for everything, for He knows exactly what is the best for me. 

Mar 23, 2014

Chapter 3: pre-trial

Im Namen Gottes, des Gnädigrn, des Barmherzigen. Assalamualaikum and a good day to you, how are you feeling? Hopefully everything is going on well.

Hiksss, it's 44 days before CIE AS examination. Hectic period is it. Classes from 8 in the morning until 3.30 in the evening. And followed by endless workloads and revisions. Been sleep deprived for the past months. Hopefully the struggle paid off later.

I don't really have anything to update honestly. But I miss writing. And posting a long status on facebook , hurm. Nevermind. 

I miss my friends. It's not that I don't have any friends here, it's just that it is not the same. People could never replace each other anyway. 

See you guys later, haven't finish revisioning for upcoming trials. May Allah help me help myself. 

Mar 9, 2014

Chapter two : Downhill

CIE AS Examination is getting near, first paper is on May 6 2014. A2 will be held somewhere around October and November.

I should try my best. I should aim for the best. 15/15 should be the target. I should ignore all distraction (eventhough it's hard) but I will try my best.

May Allah help me help myself.
By the way, deleted all my post. (it's more to revert as draft) 
Turning into a new leaf, kononnya.

Pure Math + Mechanics
German .

[1:1] Im Namen Gottes, des Gnädigen, des Barmherzigen. 
[1:2] Lob sei Gott, dem Schöpfer der Welten, 
[1:3] dem Gnädigen, dem Barmherzigen, 
[1:4] dem Alleinherrscher am Tag des Jüngsten Gerichts! 
[1:5] Dir allein dienen wir, und Dich allein bitten wir um Hilfe und Beistand. 
[1:6] Führe uns den geraden Weg, 
[1:7] en Weg derer, denen Du die Gnade (des wahren Glaubens) erwiesen hast und nicht derer, die sich Deinen Zorn zugezogen haben und in die Irre gegangen sind!      

I don't want people to see me in my weak, vain, anxious condition. All rants through out my A Level journey are now going to my small companion. Quoting Anne Frank; "Paper has more patience" . But once in a while I will try my best to update the blog with me being happy in life. (hopefully).

Looking forward for the day where proudly I can tell the world how's my result goes. (pray for me) (yes I do also pray for myself)

p/s: (ye saya juga berdoa untuk semua orang)